i need a neck massage...

Today is Raksha Bandhan, which is a special day between brother and sister. The sister ties a rakhi onto the brother's hand as a sign that it is his duty to protect her, and the brother gives her a gift to make it official. well, thaz the short, simple version. I dont have a sister but a cousin gave me a rakhi before she left for England and today i put it on. This is the 2nd year i have gotten rakhi. I always wanted growin up and now i have and this one is really cool, so that makes me happy.
my mom is angry. she has problems letting go of me and my brother and today when he brought it up she got insulted. i feel bad cause she's my mom and she did alot for us and i love her but she really is overprotective and she needs to learn to let go. how else will she get ready for when we leave home?
my brother though is being a pain. For one thing, he wants a car but he doesnt seem to realise that for him to get a car we would have to buy 2 cars! as it is, we are tryin to make out on 2 1/2 cars and thaz when three people were driving! now he makes 4, so we need to do something about it. but i see that it is not that simple so we all have to compromise. He only had minimal road experience anyway so i dunno what he rushing for. he always wants to feel older than the is.
i also realise that there are really few people i can talk to. thank goodness for this blog. at least i can pour it all in here.
i still have no girlfriend but that is okay for now. i miss the intimacy and fooling around but at least i have no commitments and no stress. i dont think i am ready to put out all the energy to have a girlfriend. I just get so lonely sometimes.
Listening to some of those songs last night in the concert really got me up. Especially when he sang the songs from Aashiqi, Saajan and the other 90's songs. And some of the new songs are really hot too. I wish we had DSL. i want to download some of those songs.
Thanks for listening folks. Laterz.