spicy spicy dance...

hi hi.
well, i went to Taal program at UWI last night. I didn't see the whole thing but what I saw was really good. The first performer was Neval and his group and they did 3 bhajans. They were okay but they had me bored mostly because Neval insists on throwing in alot of extras when he is singing such as voice quavers and that's great i guess but I don't really feel it. After that it went better. Baby Susan did a dance, and then there were three 17 yr old boys - one on guitar, one on violin and one on keyboard- and they did a few songs including some chutney, My Immortal by Evanescence, and some Sesame Street and nursery rhymes and they really got us going. Melody Stars were up next with Juanita (sorry, "Vijayanti") and her family and they were good. Pooja got people up and dancing and I feel Juanita was feeling a pressure lol. It was real funny to see people dancing especially this old lady. Big respect to Rakesh and Komal, the co-MCs. They were really really funny and I really cracked up watching them. Then there was the highlight of the show for me : the dance by Sunita from Yr 1 MED. She dances with D' Vikash dancers and she could real throw waist lol. i wanted to give her a standing ovation dred. It was so hot to watch her! I dunno if the organisers knew what kind of dance she was planning lol or if it was just a oversight in planning but everythng after that was so dead, especially since Amina Ramsaran was singing next. So, me and Kamir and Shardana went out to get food cause Shardana had a headache. Nowhere on campus was open so we went to look for doubles in Curepe but no luck. Then we went to the burger place at Valpark but ended up as KFC Curepe. That look a long time lol. So we went back after over an hour and checked out the performances which was some guys skanting, then two dancers in bikini tops and then a choreographed fight sequence. i left a little after 11 with Kamir and Shardana. Krystle had got left in UWI while we went out and she left right after we returned. Her parents had been waiting since 9!!! I would have been so pissed if I had been her dad. i didnt get to see the modelling but that's okay. My belly full with that dance from Sunita lol.
Shardana is cool. She was slack talking with us and that's a pretty rare thing in a girl. I dunno if she would follow through on the talk, but if she would, I wouldn't mind hiding in a closet with her! ;-) [aye, thaz her thing, lol, but if she likes playing in closets, i'm cool with it.)
Today, I woke up late and went to school close to 10 and read a bit before I went to the lab, which was good and now I am home. I will go work out in a few minutes and then start my work. I have lots and lots of PBL plus all my reading to do and today's lab to write up, so Shivee is a busy little boy lol, but first I really need to work out.
Tomorrow is another long day 8-6 so...see you all soon i hope.
Peace

clothes and dressing up...

hi guys. what's going on?
Well, the programme is later, and i plan to read a bit more physiology before I leave, but first I thought I should just tie up a few loose ends.
I was informed that the students who are putting together the play for the Divali Program need more male characters, so I think I will go around this week and see what I can do to help. Hopefully, I can get a nice small no-lines extras part. As a Hindu and well as part time member of M.E.D.S. I want the program to be jhakkas because it reflects on the whole Hindu population, and last year the guys who put it on really went above and beyond, so..I will do my part! (btw, i got the word jhakkas off of Geetali's blog, so thank you. A new Hindi word! :-D )
This morning I went to the tailor to try on my new pants. It looked really good, but it had to be altered a bit around the seat so I will have to pass back for it tomorrow. I didn't want the pants to be too loose so it would be more classy looking - I don't like big big pants. I don't like how they look, they add weight to a person. I want my pants to narrow and taper because then it gives the person a bit more shape and they look better. So, this pants although a bit loose does kind of narrow down so it looks nice. The grey material turned out really boss so I can use it when i go to the health centre for comm health outreach in November.
Basically, in the outreach program we will be going and interviewing expecting mothers and writing up a report on them. We also have to follow up on them. I think the intention is to give us some actual person-to-person contact with the public and the kind of people we will meet when we graduate. They put us in groups of four, and they just went down the name list alphabetically so my group is me, Krishanta, Nalini and Shivanne.And of course we have to dress up to appear professional - white/cream top and dark pants. They wanted black/navy blue but i will wear grey. I doubt they will care.
Speaking of dressing up, they want to introduce a dress code for pre-clinical medical students! That sucks! I like jeans, t-shirt and sneakers. It is a good thing I didn't buy a lot of clothes before school started cause I will have to go buy new clothes anyway when they implement the new dress code. I think the biggest change is no t-shirts. They will let us keep jeans and sneakers, althought the students had to fight for sneakers. I need sneakers - my ankles have alot of damage on them and I need the support from the sneakers. Dress shoes cause me to twist my ankle more frequently.
Tonight, I will wear a black dress pants and either a cream or blue shirt. I wanted to wear the grey pants but of course that isn't ready. I can't decide between the cream and the blue shirt, I will probably have to flip a coin. Nah, I will wear the cream.
Okay, enough for now. I might blog tomorrow and let you all know how the program went. I can't promise because lately, I have been so busy during the week. Well, as soon as I can then.
Be good.
Bye

so vexed......

I just wrote out a whole entry and then the [censored] computer made me lose it and now I am really pissed. Today didn't start out well because my [censored] neighbours decided that they had to renovate their house and I was woken by loud hammering. [censored]
Let's see..what can I tell you guys about this week. [I am so angry I have to type over everything!]
1. I managed to annoy a lot of people. Some of them I was joking with, but to all of you I apologise. I don't want there to be any awkwardness between us.
2. I was very confused by my friends. They didn't make any sense to me. Here is an example of a quote - "If you WEREN'T so persistent, you would have gotten what you wanted already." Wouldn't that just make you want to scream?
3. I am going to Taal tomorrow evening. It is a show put on by UWI Hindu society and at first I wasn't going but now I am because the last time I went to one of their functions it was fun and I might waste the evening if I don't go, and the show has some great performers listed.
4.I like 3rd rock from the sun because the alien characters are innocent and naive and now experiencing stuff and i can relate, especially when they get in trouble for speaking the truth.
5. i did some physiology this weekend so it wasn't a total waste. i also decided I needed down time so I am not feeling guilty at all. I will keep studying and when the time comes I pray that God will write the exams with me and help me through.
Okay, I think that's all. It isn't as nicely written as the first time but I don't want to sit here all night and I also didn't want to let another day pass without entering my blog. I have let it sit idle too long as is.
To Nicole and Geetali and anyone else who might read this blog, I am sorry for the [censored] bits above, but....i sadly do use expletives, and they do help to relieve stress and frustration.
Okay, take care. Bye.

3rd rock & poetry...

hey peeps, well last night after i posted, and while i was supposed to be reading, i went and put on the tv and saw that 3rd rock from the sun was on abc family. i haven't seen 3rd rock since i came back from NY! so i was very excited. 3rd rock is so funny. it is definitely one of the best shows I have ever seen. So, there were two episodes back to back, and then there was Def Poetry on HBO so that was an hour and a half total while i was supposed to be studying! But it was soo good for me. I felt more relaxed and a lot happier afterwards. I was so happy I was dancing on my bed! lol. Anyway, I read a bit after that and then went to sleep.
This morning I did a few errands in Chaguanas and then went to school around lunch time. I did a little reading in school, got some stuff explained and used a cd-rom from the library to study physiology so I think it was worth going.
I cooked pasta salad this evening and bought a chicken to go with it. The carrots in the salad were a little salty but other than that it tasted pretty good.
Okay, well I'm going to shower and stuff and try to read a bit more, so see you guys later. Peace.

slow weekend...

hi guys. it's been a very quiet two days so there isn't much to report. We didn't go to Patraj yesterday for our regular Saturday lunch outing. I guess now that school's back in, that is out lol but I am a little disappointed. I have been trying to study but it is going slow probably because I am online all the time lol. Well, keep well you all. Later.

my first accident...

Today I got in my first accident! I was reversing from in front a restaurant and I was watching up the street because there were all these cars coming my way and i forgot about the car next to me and my front bumper collided with his side rear fender. I hit it pretty hard, alot of paint came off, but it didn't dent so he let me go scot-free. Thank You Mr. Nice Guy! i really appreciate it. I believe it was the Universe's way of punishing me because I had washed my car and wouldn't shut up about how good it looked. Pride cometh before a fall.
That's what I did after I finished blogging this morning. I washed the car and worked out, then bathed and went to pick up my brother. After I dropped him home, I went to buy the food and got in the accident and then came home. Mom and Dad saw the paint spot already and heard what happened so I'm in the clear in that respect. I have work to do but I feel drained after everything. I think I will go watch tv. Laterz.

catch up...

hey, how y'all doing?
things have been kinda crazy lately, but i'll try to catch you up now.
wednesday night, we did go out to dinner. We went to apsara which is a north indian restaurant. We had nan, basmati rice,mutter mushroom,nav ratan korma (but done with curry sauce and no cashew nut paste), lamb vindaloo and, of course, tandoori chicken. There is actually a story about the lamb we had lol, my dad goes to order it and i point out the 3-chilli symbol next to the name on the menu, which of course means its fire disguised as lamb lol because I don't like pepper! A little yes, a lot definitely no! Anyway, the lamb comes and I take my first taste, and i felt it immediately lol. Oh Jeez, it was hot. So, dad ended up having most of it. But overall, the food was really really good - the chicken and vegetables and everything. The nan wasnt as dry as I had been expecting so that was really good. i've had north indian food before in NY, but this is the first time I have enjoyed it so much. The only thing is, the restaurant is sooooo expensive and I'm a cheapskate - I dont make any apologies for that. Once in a while, I will put out the extra, like when i bought the smucker's grape jam, but not too often so, we wont be going to apsara anytime soon lol. No, it was good to go because it was a special occasion and it deserved something out of the ordinary, but we won't be going there regularly lol.
So we get home from the restaurant and it's about 11pm amd I have all my pbl to print out so i can read it in class the next day, because clearly I don't have the time to read all that work now before class the next morning lol. I figure it would take 15 mins to print. Guess who was wrong? It took an hour!!! I didnt realise my printer was so slow. I go to sleep 11:30, that was the time I put it to print...i sat up till 12:30 just waiting for the thing to finish!
So, I'm tired from before, and now I have a whole new set of tiredness. Go to sleep 12:30 wake up 5:30 - 5 hours sleep! I know there are people sleeping 5 hours every night - that aint ME!!! But the thing that's pulling me through is its Thursday, last day of school for this week, and after all the time i spent researching, i want to have a good PBL session. So i go to school and we have a phsyiology lecture first up. He moves at light speeds, and the print on his slides are so small i can hardly make it out so I just take down the headings and keep cool.
We go to PBL and it went pretty okay. I did the objective with spirometry and the spirogram and i draw a spirometer and spirogram on the board and gave all the values for the spirogram and that went well. It was a straightforward objective and i knew all the stuff, so that went well. I also added on to a few other objectives and basically made my prescence felt i think. The tutor, Dr. Melville, who also is the hyper-drive physiolog lecturer, demands a lot of detail from us though, but I think that will help us in the long run with the exam because his exams are very applied, not just the stuff they teach. So, if he can point me in the way to think, that would really help. He said in all his years, only one person who was in his pbl group ever failed, and hopefully, that would put the advantage to pass on my side. He gave us an example of a past question though and it kind of freaked us out because it really was hard. It is kind of discouraging because, no matter how well you know the work they teach, and what the books say, you might still do badly because of the applied aspect. Oh well, wish me luck.
So yesterday was my brother's birthday also and they had matriculation in school. I dropped off my mom and brother and dad met them there and they all saw matriculation. Then they brought home pizza and i had picked up the cake, and we cut the cake etc. I was sooo tired though, so I crashed early to make up for all the sleep I missed during the week.
So last evening, I was online chatting with TB and as is my wont, i made a little risque comment. It wasn't even that bad this time, just a little one lol. Now, i know you all don't know this but I'm not so good at small talk lol. I like to make people laugh, and i also like risque conversations. I say rude, suggestive things. Sue me. On second thoughts, please don't. :-P. Some people might try to take me up on that lol.
So anyway, the conversation went something like this (these are not exact words) :
t - do yu realise that went yu get that like i stop talking to you?
me - yep, and not only yu
t- so what you're saying is you want me to stop talking to you?
me- no, its more like a catch 22. i talk like that normally, not just to you, and i have 2 options
a. try to stop being myself for whole conversations with you or b. the alternative is you dont talk to me, and although i dont like either option, i prefer to remain myself.
Well, she stopped talking to me :-S
So, since then I have been a bit on edge i guess, because I don't want there to be any awkwardness at school, but i don't regret what I said. I'm me, take me as I am or not at all.
Well, I woke up late today, till it got too warm to sleep and then the phone rang so I had to get up anyway. I forgot to take off my alarm so that went off at 5:30 and had me rolling off my bed to put it out but i managed to fall back asleep so that's all good.
Today, well first I am goin to go wash the car and get it all shiny for when i go to pick up Rick at school, then I have lots of work to read so I will be doing some of that,especially the physiology and i have to review statistics I haven't done in a couple of years. That should be fun though. Further Math Stats was one of the things I actually understood.
So, this has been a pretty long entry because I had to catch you guys up on alot, but it was good to write it all down anyway. Took a while though, I've been blogging with breaks for about 2 hours, so I'm really going now.
Take it easy. Peace.

in control...

hey peoples :-)
i feel good today. I am very tired but I feel relaxed.
You all will probably remember that when the semester started I was in a bit of a panic because this block i am doing in school has the highest failure rate, and because I had gotten a very demanding tutor for PBL. Well, that has not changed. The tutor (who is the convenor for the particular block we are in) was pretty cool the first session, but I am sure that he will be much more demanding this coming session (thurs.) when we actually present our findings on the first problem. He is also our physiology lecturer and he uses slides with microscopic print so that i am unable to read what the slides say lol. Therefore, to get the notes, I borrow my friends' notes and take my free time and copy it over. That is what I did today while i was waiting for my lab rotation. i thought I would have the time to relax because today was a long one and i thought I might even blog from the school library, but instead I was writing notes, but i was liming with the friends at the same time and that's always fun. well it was today anyway lol.
i think the reason i am cheerful is because the work thing is coming along a little bit. I got through the anatomy and physiology lectures and though i dozed off a bit during the anatomy video, the lab went pretty well and much better than I was expecting! Now, as to that video...that was sooo lame lol. It is just too much information too fast. i don't think anyone absorbs much during it. I talked to some other people about it and they said the same. They also said they dozed too :-P and one girl even walked out in the middle lol. It really cant be helped though so I have realised the important thing is not to let it get you too worried if you dont keep up. Just read the textbook and use the atlas and you will get it with lots of practice. Finally, I think I have found a reasonable way to learn anatomy!!! Here' hoping it works out lol. I think out of all the stuff in medical school the anatomy may be the hardest for me, but i cant ignore it so I am trying to get better at it.
Dad is at a function at the President's House! He has to work late again but at least he gets to go somewhere cool lol.
Tonight, I am going to read physiology because this block is mainly physiology, and I have alot of it to learn. I am also going to try to get some more sleep tonight so i won't fall asleep in the day tomorrow lol. We have community health outreach tomorrow in the morning and I dunno what that will be exactly but it doesn't sound too hard lol.
Thursday morning I have PBL, but tomorrow night we may go out to dinner (cause we haven't taken rick out to celebrate his scholarship yet due to dad's work and stuff) and so I have done most of my PBL already instead of waiting for tomorrow night :-D. And, I think I am most proud of that! I know it seems obvious lol, but it really does make me happy lol. So, I will try to finish that up and I will be all set, hopefully.
It feels good to have stuff somewhat in hand instead of rushing and being worried all the time.
Hope you all have a good day tomorrow!
Laterz.

too much homework...

hi guys. well this will be a short entry cause i have to go sleep to get up early and go to school in the morning. yesterday, we went out in the afternoon to lime a little bit. I had (have) alot of homework to do but i went because family time is important and since dad took over his new post, i hardly see him. He comes home late, eats and usually falls asleep right in his chair in the living room, so I went because I like the time together. I managed to get some new shirts and I will wear one in the morning cause I have skills lab again :-) When we came home, after I had settled down and stuff it was pretty late but I made myself read a little to try to make up for some of the time lost and because I really do have a lot to read for this hard block. I also have a ton of pbl.
today, did not start off well. My mom damaged her hand and i guess isnt feeling too happy about that so she is really grumpy and stuff and she screamed at me when I was just trying to be helpful. Dad went to grandma's and then alot of family came over to congratulate my brother, so I had to spend some time with them. But, I did manage to get a little work done so I am not all panicky and stuff. Tomorrow I should have some more free time in school so I will pick up back then. I've been reading some other blogs too cause I find them interesting, so to Silverella and Geetali, Hi guys!
Okay, that is about enough for now. See you guys soon. Peace.

Congrats!!! :-D ...

okay, lets get straight to it. Vijai got his scholarship! :-D
We not really celebrating much yet though cause Dad had to work late and go to some function, but i guess we have the whole weekend to make up. Well, really tomorrow, cause Sunday we don't eat meat and I love chicken. lol. A Veggie celebration definitely misses something. So, congrats to you bubs, my fellow guardian of the Chubby!
anyway, today i was home and i tried to study and did the tiniest bit. I watched some tv and fell asleep too. I got awakened too early cause some lady with a wrong number dialed my cell. That ticks me off cause it isnt that rare an occurence!!
Well, i won't stay too long, but to the other schol winners out there and especially the other Prez boys, congrats brethrens!
Peace.

Thank You...

hey. what's up with all you readers out there in the blog-osphere? Hope you all been alright. And, if it's been a rough time, hang in there ok. This too shall pass.
Well, i guess you all might have detected a slight panicky tone in my entry last night, and yes, I was pretty strung out over everything. Today, classes started back for real though, and it wasnt that bad. We had PBL with Melville, and so far, I think it went okay. Of course, I don't know what he thought and what he noted down on his little piece of paper, but I am not missing any body parts or blood so that's great news lol. Of course, since this was the first day, we just brainstormed problems. We managed to get through 2 problems so now i have tons of research for next week, and that is when we will see how things really go. Tutors can be really difficult in questioning students who are presenting for PBL. Hopefully, we can kind of back up one another, and try to help each other so everyone does well. My PBL group has a lot of people from my last group : sophia, shenaaz, randall, kevin, makeeda. So, we have a little history, and hopefully that will work to our advantage.
Today was M.E.D.S. start-of-semester puja. Normally, it is just a havan but today they did full puja. It was the first one I went to since i started Mt Hope and i think it was because I was carrying Rick. It was really really good. I am so glad i went and they had it in the amphi for the first time. I hear the seminar rooms used to be crowded and i think if i had gone before in the crowded room I might have gotten really turned off and not gone back. Now, I am actually looking forward to the next one so I guess things really do happen for a reason. Big shout out to Priya, Krix, the other Priya and all the M.E.D.S. people who put it together, it was really nice. Being there and praying, I really did feel more peaceful concerning the block and exams and school in general. Religion may just be an opiate, but i think it is a good one. It helps us to bear up when things are rough. And anyway, I dont think religion is just and opiate because i really and truly believe in God. A merciful, compassionate God. I see his miracles all around me and in my own life so I would have to be very dense to claim He does not exist. Some people may say its just random chance, but can you imagine how tiny the probability of me being so happy is?
THANK YOU ALMIGHTY GOD FOR YOUR BLESSINGS AND MERCIES. FORGIVE US OUR SINS AND BE WITH US,NOW AND FOREVER. AMEN.
Ok, well that's all for now. Take care my friends. Peace.

school sucks...

I am so tired. I can feel the tightness in my neck and shoulders.
Today was my second day actually back at school and we didnt have any classes again! They even put up a notice for a new lecture this evening and the lecturer never turned up!! And, we had to wait till late just for that lecture. First, this morning we find out they didn't schedule any classes for us in that 4 hour 8.00-12.00 block. Then, after lunch, this guy who is supposed to teach us stats came to try to organise a new time for his lectures and that was pointless cause we dont even know what's going on for this block yet. Then he ended at 1:30 and we had to wait till 4 for the lecture and at 4.30 when he didnt come we left, thoroughly pissed off. For a big fucking university, they can't seem to get their stuff in order and its wasting my time!!!
Then on top of that, I have gotten a really bad tutor for PBL (which i dont like to begin with) and because of the tutor i was assigned, I got placed in all the late labs!! It makes me want to scream.
Then, I am hearing that this block is so hard and has such a high failure rate, so i guess i will have to study even harder. I got some anatomy notes today so I will start with that tonight.
Oh yeah, one good thing, I did manage to sort out the comm health project group issue. I will be working with Ryan and Shiva again and we have a rapport from year 1 working in the same comm skills group so that is good.
Anyway, I am going to shower now, so that's all for tonight. Laterz.

first day on, second day off...

hey. what's up?
well, yesterday was the first day of school and that went by pretty good. We only had one class and that was a skill lab instead of a lecture so it was a pretty easy reintroduction into school life. After class, a group of us went out for lunch but i didnt go with my car and ended up having to stay longer than expected waiting for the others to get my drop back so vij was left stranded in school for a little while. oh well, next time i will know better. I have my car & I am going to use it dammit! lol. Didn't read or study anything last night but that's to be expected the first day of school. I hope to get back into the groove quickly though.
Today, Trinidad and Tobago is under tropical storm/hurricane alert due to hurricane Ivan, and since the ministry of education closed schools and there are advisories against leaving home and being on the road, I'm not going to school! Happy Days! :-D It's really weird because so far we have only had some relatively light showers and right now there is sun and birds singing so it feels like I am cheating somehow, but i doubt many people will go to school and so they will probably not have class anyway. it shouldnt be a problem. We have fridays free for this block so i am sure they will just take one of those days and reschedule the lectures, so we'll see how it goes.
I went with my shirtjac to school yesterday and everyone was commenting how i looked like a doctor already. It was pretty funny. Oh yeah and they were cracking on my phone, but that's okay....noone else has one like it! :-)
Anyway, I think I'll go look for some breakfast now. Catch up with you guys later. Peace.

injuries before school...

Today was my last day of holidays. Tonight I have to go to bed early to get up early to drive through the traffic to go to school. No more tv, or staying up late or liming as I please. And yet, even the drive through the traffic seems like something to look forward to. I don't know how things will work out with me and my brother going to the same school again, but we did it for so many years so i guess we will find a way through this too. I would be lying if i said i was lookin forward to all the studying and the exams and yet, Mt. Hope is so different from Presentation and Chaguanas Government that I do enjoy going to school and I want to be a competent doctor so the more I can learn now the better.
So, today I went through the house and got my bookbag and dusted it off and put together the clothes I will wear tomorrow. We have skills lab as soon as schools starts so I will be going in dress clothes. I'll show those year 1's how doctors supposed to dress :-P. I do like to dress nicely even if I dont always want to shell out the dough to do it. Dressing up makes me feel more confident and stylish. Its a good thing lol.
My mom injured her hand today. She was helping my dad clean the front of the house and slipped and fell in the drain. D'OH!!! She dislocated her thumb and got scratched up. They went to the hospital and they reset the thumb and banded it up. Now, she has to take it easy for 4 weeks but she is so obstinate. I hope she listens and lets the thumb heal! At least nothing else was damaged eg., her spine. So, to top off the new school routine now we have to adjust to that and see about the cooking and the cleaning. And Ricky is so lazy! He better help! Imagine he was supposed to clean the top floor of the house for so many weeks and he never even cobwebbed. If i hadnt cleaned that floor today, the cobwebs would probably still be there! Ooooh, sometimes I just want to hit him till he learns.
Anyway, that's all for now I think. I will write tomorrow to let you know about my first day back at school.

p.s. I wasn't able to change Krystle's mind and I am really angry at her.

unproductive, but fun...

Mmmm, i slept really well last night, and that was good because we were on the move all day today.
First, I called Krystle to try to get her to change her mind about staying back a year at school but no luck. I called Renair this afternoon though and she said she would talk to Krystle and see if she could make any impression on her. I dont know yet how that went. I am hoping it went well but i dont know. Sherry wasnt home when i called but then i remembered she went to church so maybe tomorrow i will get her. Hopefully, if we get through to Krys, she can get everythign sorted out on monday.
We went to look at a used car place to get an idea of the prices and what you could get for any particular range. Then we went to a.a. laquis in gulf city to get a lab coat for my bro but they didnt have this size.
We then went to Valpark to look for some books for school for me but they didnt have any of the books i wanted :-S.
Next, we went to Patraj for lunch. i like having that little saturday custom now. :-) That's the kind of thing you remember in later years.
We went to town and got the new insurance policy for the Sunny so i'm safe to drive again lol.
After that we went onboard the Logos II ship as we had not visited it previously. The Logos II, for those of you may not know, is a ship which is advertised as a large floating book expo full of science and literature etc. That was a bit of a disappointment. It didn't have the kinds of books i was expecting nor the variety. We did get a few books though - I got a little book on card tricks for $15. TT.
The Logos II is also a bit of a floating Christian mission, and when i found out that I was shocked because as i said, I always thought of the ship as being a mecca of science and literature and lets face it, religion and science don't always mix. I actually had a long thought today concerning science and religion but i dont know if i am any closer to a understanding. Lets go through some of the thought patterns i experienced :
- Science and religion cant mix because while science searches for proof and seeks to explain and understand, religion is based on faith without need for proof. But then I thought, that our modern science is a bit based on faith because while we have models for atoms we dont know for sure if thats how they are. The models fit the data we have about atoms and atomic behaviour but in the future new tests might give new data and lead to new models. That is how science moves forward. So we take the electrons-orbiting-the-nucleus model on faith.
- What if there is a God and scientific advances are just gifts from him ? Since I couldnt see a way to either support or refute this I was stuck right there.
Anyway, as I said, Logos II is like this big floating mission and the people serving on board are volunteers who wanted to spread the love of Jesus Christ.
I am Hindu as I said when i was writing my first entry in this blog and I thought about converting when I was growing up, but I remained Hindu largely for two reasons. Hinduism accepts all forms of God as equal. So, whether Krishna or Jesus, to the Hindu they are equally worthy of adoration and therefore all religions are equal. The second thing was that everyone was encouraged to go out and find God for himself and experience God in his own way. I interpreted that to mean that you didnt have to follow the doctrine if you had your own way of honouring God so, someone who prays everyday and someone who doesnt pray but does lots of charity work would both be redeemed when the time came. I couldnt accept that someone could be a great person but because they didnt belong to a certain religion or didnt follow a particular doctrine they could be damned for eternity. And, if God is Infinite, shouldn't he or she really have infinite faces?
So, having said all that, my point is, I accept that Jesus Christ is just as worthy as Ganesh and Hanuman, but at the same time, being preached to is a little uncomfortable for me.
After the ship, we went to Long circular mall where i saw some cute shirts but they didnt have my size!!! Well, they had a size I wear but my dad said it fitted a little too close and the only other size was too big so maybe i should get the shirts at the smaller size ?!
Wow, now that i have listed it out, i realise that a lot of things we wanted to do today didnt get done: Ricky didnt get his labcoat, I didnt get the books or the shirt and Logos II was not all we expected and I wasnt able to sway Krystle.
Hmm, oh well at least today was fun, so I don't consider it a total bust, and it helped me relax before school started back.
But, now due to tiredness, my eyes are getting bleary so I will end here. Peace.

that is illogical, captain...

hey guys, i'm so tired, but i wanted to get in my entry before i went to sleep. I want to stick to the blog and make it long term, so viola...here i am! :-D
Well, i actually did get in a little liming today. I dropped ricky at main campus for ice breaker and then since i had to wait to pick him up in the evening and didn't feel like coming back to chaguanas and being alone at home, i went to mt hope where i met sherisse and kamir and we went back to main campus for sherisse to get some stuff for her club, and then we all went to trincity for lunch. After trincity we went to grand bazaar to look for clothes. I still havent gotten any dress clothes and i have skills lab the first day of school - Monday!!! After that, i passed back mt hope with kamir then gave him a lift to his apartment and then went back to main campus to pick up my brother.
It was fun liming with sherry and kamir today. We were hanging out and talking stupidness and cracking up - it was cool.
Well, tomorrow we will probably go up to PoS, so i guess I will look around in town and see if i find one good shirt to wear for skills lab. I dont want to repeat clothes too often. Although. I haven't worn my shirt jac in a while. Hmmm, if I can find it that would be a pretty good thing to wear. Got to remember to look for it!
So, like i said monday is the day school restarts. I think I only have one class though so that is great. I am glad school is starting back but I know i will have a rough time readjusting to getting up early and stuff. KD8401251 (a friend of mine from school. the code is to protect his/her identity and keep me save from being beat up :-P) wants to repeat year one because she failed one block even though she can move on to year two and trail the block. Now, i dont really want to interfere because if anything goes wrong I dont want to be blamed but, I think i will try to talk to her tomorrow and see if i can get her to reconsider. I hope so...her plan doesnt seem to be the best one to me, even if she does have certain reasons. Oh well, I will talk to her and see how it goes. And maybe I will get SM8311261 and RR8412081 to help. (this code thing is pretty cool. I like it! :-D)
Anyways, that's all folks. Be good!

Hooah!...

Last night I was watching a television program on Discovery Channel about soldiers who were training to be U.S. Navy SEALs. It wasn't even actual SEALs training. It was the weeding out process. I suppose because of movies I have always wanted to be a SEAL because they know how to fight and blow stuff up and everything cool.
But when I saw how hard the SEALs have to train and how stiff the selection process is, I knew I would never make it.
Now firstly, I can't get in because I'm not a U.S. citizen and also, my eyesight is shot. I don't make the minimum eye sight standards for the SEALs but anyway, Hell Week is really hard. Imagine getting 2 hours sleep in a whole week and during your waking hours you're running and doing pushups and sitting in cold water.
Well it was a nice dream, but sorry SEALs, you won't be seeing me anytime soon! [Yeah, as if they're really missing the chubby boy who's picky about what he eats!]
Still...how cool would it be to be a SEAL, or a Green Beret or Army Ranger or Marine Recon or S.A.S. or any of the other Special Forces around the world? I've loved the commandos ever since I read a comic book about frogmen (UDT teams) during World War II.
Oh well, that's my entry for today. Laterz.

another poem...

Rough around the edges but with a good heart
He knows how to play but he knows to stay smart
Tries to listen to his mom cause to ignore her would be stupid
And he aint stupid yo
He knows what's what and he knows how it go
All he wants is redemption and a therapist's absolution
But how can he be cleansed when he won't admit to the problem?
He knows little kids can't be blamed, but he remembered getting the warning
So he tries to convince himself it's all good
Because to say otherwise would be to incriminate his blood
And to open a Pandora's box made of bitter wood
So he longs for a shrink's couch and his soul to bare
Or maybe the confessional with its closed off chair
He can't tell anyone
He can't escape his burden
And why, oh why, so many times
Didn't he just heed the words of his mom?

i'm not a good boy...

OK, here's the story of last night.
A friend of mine - or a guy who's in my class (I'm not going to call him my friend because i asked to borrow his Punjabi MC cd and he acted all f---ed up), told me how I was such a nice guy because when he and his girlfriend (who limes in our group) broke up, I didn't try to score any cheap points with her by bad talking him. And I really didn't, but the thing I was trying to get him to understand is that, i didn't do that for him. I did it because firstly, I don't like how girls always bad talk boys when they break up. It was the two of them in the relationship yuh know, and to be fair, the girl can be seriously annoying, so I didn't want the boy to get all the blame and stuff. And secondly, dude, I just ain't into your girl lol. GIRL IS ANNOYING!!!. So, yeah, I was all upstanding this rounds, but if you ever get a girl I am into, it might be a different story! :-P
Today was nice. I was home all by myself and it was really quiet and peaceful. I worked out today so my arms are a little tired from the pushups. I HATE PUSHUPS!!! I guess that means it's working though so that is good and i like feeling my stomach tighten after the abdominal routines. It hasn't siezed up on me in a while which is really good. I'm still chubby -ok, fat- and jiggly lol but exercise really can make yu feel better about yourself.
Anyway, thaz all for now. Take it easy. Laterz.