lecturers who can't teach!...

hey guys.
ok lemme catch u guys up quick.
last week i got a speeding ticket. i confessed to my parents even though i had taken care of the ticket but i didnt want to be untrustworthy and so i got my lumps and am still allowed to drive. happy days. lol.
school sucks! i mean seriously. if we get one good lecture a day we are lucky! the anat and biochem lecturers (mcrae and barnes) cant teach! i am sure they know the work but they cant impart it to the students effectively. Other than that it has been quiet. Mom and Dad are at Rick's prize function, and i am hungry!!!
Well, i might give you all a longer update another day but for now I am out of here.
Peace.

school sucks...

I MISS YEAR ONE!!!
Since school started back in September as year 2, it seems like i always have too much work, too little sleep, too little fun, and too little results to show for all of it.
Alot of people besides me are unhappy with the way the last block and the exam went, so that they have started writing an official letter to voice our displeasure. They listed 4 things that they had problems with to bring those issues to the attention of the faculty and especially Melville. We sort of doubt that they will do anything but at least this way there will be an official response from the student body so they cant say that we didnt say anything. They are asking all the students to sign the letter to show solidarity. I signed mainly because of one point which questioned the validity of the exam questions and the material tested. After all, there is a reason so many people did below average in this exam - me included!!!
Yesterday, I was feeling very discouraged, but a few friends urged me to put it behind me and just keep on working, and that made me feel a bit better, so thanks guys.
Today, not only was i tired, but we had 3 ½ hours of anatomy and I don't think i absorbed a single thing. Anatomy lectures are so lame! McRae is lame! School is lame! So tonight I will have to spend more time trying to figure out what she was going on and on about today.
We did have one good lecture today though. Hari Maharaj gave us our "Introduction to Psychiatry" :-D. He was funny and he made it interesting so Hooah! to him.
Chrissy hasn't replied to either of the text messages I sent to her over the weekend so I am disappoined at that, but I guess I can use that as a signal of her feelings or lack thereof. I gotta move on. I don't see this going anywhere good.
Anywayz, keep well dear readers.
Peace.

how times have changed...

You know, when I was a little boy and i used to watch the indian movies of the 70's, 80's and 90's, I never saw anyone kissing in those movies. The earliest way I remember it being done was the star boy and heroine would move in for the kiss and then before it could actually take place,the star girl would blush and hide behind her shawl or she would run away. This gave way to a technique where the star boy and star girl would go to kiss and just before it happened, the cameras would cut away, merely hinting at the act, rather than showing it. So, imagine my shock when, while watching a movie preview on television today, i saw the two people not merely kissing with their lips but actually, to quote a close friend of mine, "sucking tongue". (Hey T.D. ! :-D) I was shocked! And to be honest, I was also disappointed at actually having to see it. Yes, Indian cinema has gotten quite modern, with skimpy clothes and risque dance sequences, but to actually see two people frenching in a Bollywood movie? Ughhh. It just wasn't right!!! I suppose I am this worked up because I haven't seen this in an indian movie before. I mean I see it all the time in English movies, and more often than not I enjoy looking at it there, but on this particular occasion, it was just weird!.
Anyways, you all keep well. Bye-bye.

one day @ a time...

hi guys.
i was now thinking if i should start the entry with "dear diary, " , but since I am pretty sure the only reason I am sticking to the blog is because of the exhibitionism/voyeurism factor, which makes it more exciting, I might as well address my readers (assuming, of course, that I have any!)
Anyway, well I have been off school since exam ended on Monday and for most of this week I have hung around the house and didn't do much. Remember I had made a whole list? Well most of that list is still unfulfilled lol. That's not good, but I would be lying if I said i really cared. For me the best thing to happen this week was the time i spent with Ree. I had so much fun and it was like old times. I felt so close to her again. I know that we aren't getting back together anytime soon and she knows it too, but still we get along sooo well. It is unbelieveable.
I also got my second Hep B vaccine. We couldnt find the immunization card and the lady in the health centre boof me up! lol but i get the vaccine and a new card so is all smooth.
The only thing I didn't get to do that I wanted to do was fix the Sunny, but I will eventually. I have to make an appointment by the mechanic. Oh, and I have to go for the eye test. Another appointment gig lol.
Results for the exam came out yesterday or thursday evening. I passed! but just barely. 55%
It isn't that good a score and of course I wish I had gotten higher, but like I said before on this blog, this block sucks so I am glad I passed. For a while yesterday and today I was feeling down, but I realised I couldnt change that and i need to face forward and plan for the future, so that is what I am doing. I have spotter in december and phase in may and i have to get ready for them. And if melville gives me a decent mark in pbl I might make something of this block yet. With a little luck I might hit 18 and that would be decent all things considered. I am pretty sure all of my friends scored higher than me in the exam, but it doesn't matter except for pride's sake. There scores don't affect my mark or my passing and that is all I want to do - PASS. 51% would mean a pass, and not having to repeat the block and therefore, that is all I want. I will keep studying of course. I am not aiming for 51%, but anything over that, i will consider icing on the cake. Look, I know it is very disconcerting to hear that from someone wanting to be a doctor, because doctors have to save lives etc. and for a long time it bothered me too but..i realised there must be a reason the pass mark is 50 rather than say 75, and so I will just try to remember that and do my best anyway. Have faith people, I am trying to lol. Lets all together hope that I turn out to be a good doctor. I was really worried about telling mom and dad about the mark, but they turned out to be really cool. They just said try not to fail and have to trail a block. Well Dad said that since last year, he was real cool. But, Mom wanted honours and distinctions which I not getting so I wanted to see if she woulda freak again but I guess she realise it not happening lol.
My friends are very ambitious. I have heard more than one say "I didn't do so hot in Resp. I will need to really top in the next block." and i wanted to say, "Do you realise that the blocks are separate and not affected by any other?", but they all know their own scenes best and I don't want to seem to be undercutting them. My aim when i entered med school was to remain cool and calm and unstressed, and day by day I try to maintain that aim.
As far as it goes with Ms. C. - I am going to let it play out one day at a time. i don't want to prematurely kill any possibilities with her, and anyway she says she likes being single for now and that is cool with me. I want to see how we mesh in the meanwhile. Ree says if i get the chance go for it or i will forever wonder what if? but if i get with her and we break up she will really never forgive me this time, assuming she has now, and that i am not so sure about. It's alot to think about and weigh up. God help me, I don't think it would work out and i know i shouldn't go into a relationship with doubts, but is just talking to her going to be enough for me? Ree has a point too and as me and C get more into it we might grow so much more together! It's very confusing, made more annoying by the fact i dont even know for sure she wants something with me so i could be worrying for nothing, and indeed wasting my time. She told me her wish-list in a boy and I don't add up to much on that list but she DID get with me already, and she isn't what i am looking for but still i can't get her out of my mind!!!
Okay, I need some time to breeze out, so I will see you guys again later.
Peace.

addendum...

hey guys, sorry about the last blog. there was some formatting error but since it is still readable, I don't think i will do it all over, okay?
Also, just to mention, some of the songs I like presently : Breathe - Fabolous, Oye Mi Canto - N.O.R.E. , Nina Sky, et al. and Flames and Fire - artist unknown.
Cool. Take it easy.

after a while...

hello my blog friends - my very very silent blog friends! :-P
Do you know I have never had even one comment left on my blog. It doesn't really matter I guess. It is MY diary, but still I'm sharing it, aren't I? Gimme a shout, a line, anything lol. Let me know if you think I have lost my mind, or if maybe I make a good point sometime.
Anyways, I know I haven't blogged in about 8 days, but you all know I had exams yesterday and things were kind of hectic leading up to it. The exam, by the way, was probably the hardest I have had since I entered Med School.
Everyone agreed it sucked lol. We were warned though. As you all know, I kept saying that everyone said this was the block with the highest failure rate etc. and I tried not to let it throw me off my natural game, weak as it may be lol. I think it worked. I didnt get too down or anything although I admit I am very unsure about how I will do. I am hoping for the best of course, but I don't dare to predict anything.
We walk in and the convenor, Dr G.N. Melville, our physiology lecturer and my PBL tutor announces he won't allow any use of calculators. I don't really know why he did that, although it was because he said he couldn't check to make sure they were all non- programmable. (Programmable calculators are banned, and also this block had some serious equations to learn!!!) I don't think it really affected me all that much, because i could work out the numbers mentally and at least come up with a rough answer but some people said it kept them back - that having to do the calculations by hand (which they probably really aren't used to) cost them precious minutes. I don't really doubt them. For a while there I was wondering if I would finish in the allotted time! I kept a close eye on my watch though so I finished with 3 or 4 minutes left on the clock. Not that that guarantees me a good mark!
Anyway, that was about the exam. All I can do is wait till the mark comes out, so till then I don't want to dwell on it. I don't think it will help my frame of mind.After exam, we went to lime as is the tradition, and a group of us went to Trincity. We walked around a little and had lunch and watched a movie. We kind of split up at the movie because most people in the group wanted to see Resident Evil 2, but me and Sherry went and saw "Cellular" . It wasn't bad, in fact it had some really funny moments and after exams i really needed those laughs. Anyway, at the mall, we had arranged to meet up with Christopher, Nafees and Narvin and Natasha, but they ended up coming after a really long time and they brought along a group of other Prez boys from Eng. including Cips, Ramswarup, and some others, so they sat at another table and although we went and said Hi etc, the group i was with at the mall included Me, Sherry, Keegan, Ryan, Andre, Joann, Dillon, and another Keegan, and we got along cool so thaz great. I also learned that two people from class had been seeing each other and keeping it quiet and discreet. They were good too. I didnt have a clue. They looked good together lol.
Well, at any rate, that is the end of that block, till phase comes around next May, and the next block, starts Monday. It is "MD20B- Behaviour and Neurosciences" and I am looking forward to it although I hear it can also be a challenging block, but it has some psych in it and you know I like that and am interested by it. Also, during this block, we will really start on our comm health project and I will be going on the outreach trip, and with Divali, Eid and then Christmas, this block promises to be busy and full of stuff.
I just realised again that I have only been back at school for about 5 weeks and I have a further 9-10 weeks to go for this semester! It seems like so long since school started because of how much work this last block was.
I love Christmas Season! So much to see and do. Shopping, nice food, pretty clothes, seeing all the family, gifts, everywhere decorated, and just a whole different feeling in the air. First is Divali though, so I start to fast on Thursday, first for Nau Raatum, then Divali, then after Divali, they want to have prayers and though I complain, you know I can't just sit on the sidelines, I will have to take part too, so I will be fasting till late November probably. Of course that will be tough, but after that is Xmas Season in full swing although it has actually started already. And the food!
For those of you who have never had Trini Xmas, I sympathise. Because we have so many different people (races and groups) in Trinidad, the cultures have mixed and melded and at no time does this produce better results than at Xmas. We have the american Turkey, the indian curry duck, the spanish pastelles, the roasted chickens, the sweets, the sorrel, the cakes......ohh man, my mouth is watering already. And coming after the abstinence of Divali, it is all the more delectable and enjoyable. Eid comes between Divali and the prayers so I will still be fasting but I might still go visit a friend who usually invites me over for Eid. Eat roti and pumpkin and channa or something lol. If you are wondering why I keep talking about food....it's part of being a Trini - you eat and drink when you liming or celebrating. lol. And well.... I fat :-P
I LOVE SORREL!!! I could drink it every day!!!
Okay, I know this entry is getting really long lol, but I owe you guys an entry or three so enjoy this extra long one lol.
Wednesday night, Chrissy started talking to me again. She just messaged me. I was shocked. Apparently, she and her boy broke up, and if they really were engaged, i didn't bother to ask, well i guess the engagement is off too. So, we were talking and stuff since then. At first, from the tone of the conversations, I thought that she had forgiven me and we were maybe moving forward, but turns out, she was just flirting. I found out that last night. At least it hadn't gone too far! So, I dunno what will happen now. She says she likes talking to me, more than most fellas but I don't know if that will count for much. She wouldnt even send me her pics! She also told me what she wanted in a fella, and I dont come even close lol. Oh well....que sera', sera'!
In the good news department I went and saw Ria today and we had a good time and fooled around a bit and she made pelau and it tasted really good. :-D
Okay, that is it for now.
Keep well peoples.
Peace.

traffic!!!...

hey.
what's up with you all out there in blog-land?
i was writing an entry into the journal on friday but it got lost again and i got frustrated so i gave up on that idea.
There really isn't much to catch you guys up on.
With exams coming up in exactly one week from today, everyone is studying hard. Last week, I divided my time between studying and researching all those PBL problems. I set aside a certain amount of time each night between monday - wednesday and then told myself i had to complete x amount of objectives. then outside of that time i was reading physiology trying to learn it all before the exam. It worked out pretty well. I got most of the pbl objectives completed, and except for wednesday night which went exclusively to pbl i managed to read some other stuff too. PBL itself went great. I talked a lot lol especially because some of the objectives i did noone else bothered to do. They were all pretty much putting pbl to the side to do revision but i want a good pbl mark and i hear our tutor marks pretty hard. We didn't do all the objectives on thursday. we have one more problem to present this thursday but now i only have one objective to research so i have more time to study this week :-)
Weekend was quiet. I did a little revision but not alot. I don't mind though. the way i am thinking of it, i worked really hard during the week so i need the weekend to relax and keep my balance.
After exam on monday next week, we have the rest of the week off due to a conference being held in our school. I am looking forward to the days off because there are a number of little things i want to do in that time off. They include: practice med skills, get the car checked by a mechanic, get it buffed and polished, go visit R. and some other things that have slipped my mind right now lol.
I love my Sunny! :-D I know its a second-hand Nissan but it looks so cool with the tint, chrome nickel and rims w/ low profile tires. That's my baby. That is why I want to get it checked out. I drive it too hard and it making funny noises. I want it working at top efficiency. And the buff and polish will make it shine even more lol.
today was good, just a skills lab. I dressed up in a new pants and shirt. I wish i could have taken a pic but my parents and bro would have looked at me funny. Didnt get too much reading done in school but did get some past papers so that is good.
Traffic these days is horrible!!! Today it took me 75 mins to reach to school. with no traffic i can do it in 25 mins! But i had to drop ricky early and dad went up with us so no escaping that and i don't mind.
My brother is a pain!!! Seriously, he ticking me off.
Okay well that's all for now. If anyone out there is reading this blog and was anxiously awaiting this entry lol. Well, I hope it was as good for you as it was for me. hahaha.
Peace.