nice timetable but...

hey folks, well today is Independence Day here in T&T, so there is a public holiday which means my family is home again. yippee. Yesterday, i was home by myself and that was cool because that hasn't happened in a while. I wanted the car to go out but that couldn't happen so i had to stay home and it was alright. School starts back next week, so I really wanted to lime this week but with no car and certain people acting up I don't think it's going to happen. Oh well....
I saw my timetable for my next year of school. First block is listed as having no classes for on fridays, and also we don't have any classes in the small amphitheatre so that is great news. I hope things remain that way though. Someone might get the bright idea to screw up my fridays. When i saw the timetable my first thought was 'cool, i can go cinema friday afternoons!', but then i realised i wont have the car and i also hear this block - respiration - is really hard, so fridays might go reading :-S. I have to do well this year, and there are two hard (harder) blocks - respiration and muscles, bones and joints - so lots of work. This holiday i was supposed to learn some stuff for mbj but it didn't happen so i guess some fridays will go to that too.
I bought a book to help me with the OSCE. I know it is the end of next year but i was worried about it so I decided rather than let it fester, I might as well be proactive and try to help myself. Yay me!!! :-D [If noone else will big you up, do it yourself. lol]
I am never going to be alone!! My brother will go to the same school, get off for holidays the same time as me, everything. I am always going to see him and we dont get along very well these days. I dunno how we are going to manage!!
Anyway, that's enough for now. I don't know what we are doing later but i might make another entry depending on how things go. Peace.

i need a neck massage...

Today is Raksha Bandhan, which is a special day between brother and sister. The sister ties a rakhi onto the brother's hand as a sign that it is his duty to protect her, and the brother gives her a gift to make it official. well, thaz the short, simple version. I dont have a sister but a cousin gave me a rakhi before she left for England and today i put it on. This is the 2nd year i have gotten rakhi. I always wanted growin up and now i have and this one is really cool, so that makes me happy.
my mom is angry. she has problems letting go of me and my brother and today when he brought it up she got insulted. i feel bad cause she's my mom and she did alot for us and i love her but she really is overprotective and she needs to learn to let go. how else will she get ready for when we leave home?
my brother though is being a pain. For one thing, he wants a car but he doesnt seem to realise that for him to get a car we would have to buy 2 cars! as it is, we are tryin to make out on 2 1/2 cars and thaz when three people were driving! now he makes 4, so we need to do something about it. but i see that it is not that simple so we all have to compromise. He only had minimal road experience anyway so i dunno what he rushing for. he always wants to feel older than the is.
i also realise that there are really few people i can talk to. thank goodness for this blog. at least i can pour it all in here.
i still have no girlfriend but that is okay for now. i miss the intimacy and fooling around but at least i have no commitments and no stress. i dont think i am ready to put out all the energy to have a girlfriend. I just get so lonely sometimes.
Listening to some of those songs last night in the concert really got me up. Especially when he sang the songs from Aashiqi, Saajan and the other 90's songs. And some of the new songs are really hot too. I wish we had DSL. i want to download some of those songs.
Thanks for listening folks. Laterz.

good music and good lawyers...

Last night i went to the Kumar Sanu/ Alka Yagnik concert at the Centre of Excellence. It was really cool. They can actually sing. I mean they went up on stage live and did a performance comparable with their recorded work. That is talent! So many entertainers, including Sean Paul, can't do that.
We were up in the nosebleed section but i had my binoculars and it wasnt that much to see anyway - at least see in detail. There were a few performances by a dance group so that was pretty much it. The sound engineering was great so we heard fine but there was so many people and at the beginning i was really uptight. i wanted to hit someone lol. i dunno why, just being surrounded by people and getting blocked from seein the stage and stuff. I think i gettin too violent.
Anyway, the show was great and i heard some top shot songs and guess what? I could sing along to soo many. That made me happy! :-)
We went to my cousin's wife's prayers in the morning. Saw some really cute kids. One day, I know I will want kids but not yet, my cousin's kid proved to me i'm not ready for kids lol. There was one little girl tho, and her sister, they were so sweet. I getting soft :-S
When I was choosing what profession to enter, I chose medicine over law because i didnt want to defend the guilty. Yesterday, I realised that that was cynicism. I should have been focussed on defending the innocent. So, to all lawyers who defend the wronged, I salute you.
Peace.

just watch-ing...

Hi people, well today i went to school and finished registering along with my brother. For those of who you are saying 'wait, didnt he talk about registration before?' well our university has a pretty drawn out process so only today did we finally comlete the steps. I saw some people i havent seen since holiday started so that was fun.
I also went to look for a watch. I have a few watches but they are all digital and i wanted a nice analog watch to use on formal and fancy occasions. I had seen a Bulova watch in a mall about a week ago and since that mall was closer I passed there first to check the price. The watch in that store cost more than TT$900.00!!! No way was i going to buy a watch that expensive especially this watch wasnt even gold nor did it have any precious stones. It was a nice understated classy watch, and i love the style of it and the numbers on the face, but i simply couldnt spend that much money on a watch! My dad has been working a long time and he has never bought such as expensive watch and it would be really bad for me on my students budget to buy it. Even when i do graduate i doubt i will buy it- that's just not how i was raised.
Then I went to another store in the city because they sold Sigma watches which are really hard to find but they are really good watches. I won one in a math competition when i was in primary school but that one was lost or stolen and i really wanted to replace it. Unfortunately, the store only had a few Sigma watches and they looked like they had been sitting there for a while. Also, none of the watches they had were my style so I had to leave it. That's too bad, i really wanted a Sigma watch. I also heard that the supplier of Sigma to the States had stopped importing them. I am wondering if the Sigma company closed down or something.
Anyway, i'm off for now. Peace.

dark prophecies...

Those of you who have been following my little diary online would know that I try to write my entries in such a way that you get an insight into my world. Well today I am going to make an entry but unfortunately you don't know all the backstory leading to it. My apologies, and I hope you can stumble through and get something from this entry.
The 2 main things you need to know before reading this: a. My pundit said I won't have a girlfriend for 3 years starting about a year ago (so 2 years of singleness left) and b. Valentine's sucked because my valentine didn't make any sort of effort. [Apparently, she and her bf (ex- at the time) were going through one of those "break up to make up" things and i didn't know that. Whatever. They're together again and as you can tell by my writing this 6 months down the line, i just wasn't pleased. period.]
Ok, so what is my blog?
Simply this, what if what happened at Valentines wasn't her fault so to speak? What if it all happened becuase i really had this 3 year cloud over my head and no matter who it was it wouldn't have worked? How much is pre-destined and how much happens because we make it happen? And given this damn stars-crossed thing, should i feel bad about my two ex-es? Or would we just have finished anyway? My last gf and I broke up around the time the pundit predicted all the stuff.
Ok, this is getting me more annoyed. See you all later. Peace.

poetry instruction books...

My aunt who is visiting Trinidad from the States came by us today and is staying the night. Thankfully, we got the house in decent enough shape before she came, or at least i hope so, i don't know what she thinks. We went out to dinner and the food was good again. I preferred the chicken in black beans at Yang's though.
I was watching Def Poetry on HBO tonite and i started thinking. Writing is supposed to be something intimate. You write what you feel and so everything you write is perfectly correct. Poetry is about your feelings and thoughts and experiences. So, since poetry is essentially for you, how can anyone else judge your work? And why are there all these "How to.." books and poetry classes? Then i figured it out. At its purest form, you dont need any of these things to write proper poetry because you know the context and feelings and emotions that led to the act of writing that poem or prose. The purpose of the instructions is to write poetry you can market to others. And I guess i understand that, but somehow, it leaves me with this feeling, that poetry meant to be marketed, isn't totally pure. How can you truly write what yu feel, if at the back of your mind, you are thinking, ' will this get published' ? I know i am probably being naive, but that thought just stuck in my head.
An advantage to a diary - it makes you think out the issue as you write it and helps you select better words to express yourself. And maybe, that isn't so different from what those "how to..." books try to accomplish. So, i guess I have been kind of hard on them. Anyhow, laterz.

byebye cuz...

I went to the cinema today. I saw the Bourne Supremacy which was pretty good, but I think I am going to have to see it again to get everything the movie had. I wish the fight sequences weren't so fast, they would have been much cooler if you could really see the moves. I was soo tired today that during the second movie - AvP- I actually dozed off a couple times in the cinema. Thaz okay thought, i wasnt so hot up on seeing that movie.
I had chicken teriyaki today but it wasnt as good as i had gotten in the States.
And my cousin Aarti went back to England. She gave me a rakhi before she left cause obviously she wont be here for Raksha Bandhan on Sunday. That was nice of her.
Anyway, I gotta get going. I have to get up early to clean because one of my aunts from the States is visiting T&T and is dropping by us. So, the house has to be in order. That is going to be alot of work. I'll check in with you guys again tomorrow. Take it easy. Peace.

where did they get these judges? ...

I was originally going to blog and talk about how paul hamm was being unsportmanlike in holding onto the gold medal he got in the olympic men all-around gymnastic final, given all the controversy and the circumstances. After all, the Korean boy was cheated by the judges and denied gold through no fault of his own. But then I really sat and thought about it and i can see how hamm feels. After all, he didn't make the judging error and who would really give up the one gold medal they got at the olympics anyway? Plus, the korean team management must take some of the blame for not noticing what the judges were doing.
Then i watched the finals of the men high bar and i was shocked by what occurred with aleksei nemov of russia. I'm no expert nor a judge but i know a good routine when i see one and those 4 releases were spectacular!! The one flaw was the step on the landing, which is a relatively minor flaw. the crowd was right to boo and make the judges change the score. [BTW. KUDOS TO YOU ALEKSEI NOT ONLY FOR THE PERFORMANCE BUT THE WAY YOU HANDLED THE CROWD AND ASKED THEM TO LET PAUL HAMM GO ON WITH HIS ROUTINE. GREAT SPORTMANSHIP. HAMM...TAKE A LESSON, DUDE!]
So, the problem is clearly the judging. Firstly, the scores were wrong and second, they put hamm in a pretty hard position...twice. And i have to ask, given that this is the Olympics..the absolute top teir of international competition....WHERE THE FUCK DID THEY FIND THESE MORONS??? Was the coalition of the blind and retarded busy? Get real you losers and i hope they ban all of you from judging for life for having no taste.
Okay that's my rant. Catch you guys later.
Oh btw. ELENA ZAMOLODCHIKOVA is so sexy. She has the most beautiful eyes. :-D

hot days and chilly girl...

Today was BROILING!!!! It was so hot I was sweat soaked even before i left the house for the wedding. And i was all dressed up so the fact my shirt got wet annoyed me. It was so bad i couldn't even concentrate at the wedding, all i could about was getting home where i could be in my cool, dim room. This weather is absurd. I hope this isnt global warming and it doesnt get hotter every year. I would die!!!
I didn't really gape any of the days of the wedding. I saw a girl i used to be interested in a lifetime ago, but she didnt bother to say hi or anything and i dont think she's worth the effort anymore so i just let it all pass. I'd rather be single then waste effort on some chickenhead. If I do get with a girl, I want to know that all the effort isnt coming from my side and I hate high-maintainence chicks. Sorry girls, I'm too cheap for that scene.
Well, i cooked today. The peas came out pretty well but they bought pizza so i guess the peas will wait till tomorrow. Thaz ok with me - I love rice peas and chicken and i aint eating meat today.
Anyhow i going to get some of that pizza. Laterz

rude and inconsiderate me...

Today was another good day. This morning we did some stuff to clean up around the house. The plumbing still sucks but we can't find a good plumber. I have an aunt from away visiting T&T. I hope she doesn't want to come over. The plumbing and general house condition is just too messed up.
Went out to lunch as is becoming the Saturday norm. We even went to Patraj for roti which is also as usual. Then we passed in Grand Bazaar and Price Smart and Price Club to get the gift for Reshma and Roshan who are getting married tomorrow. Had muffins and yoghurt at Price Smart and saw a girl from class - I wish i could remember her name!! I am pretty sure she limes with Sophia. Got a smile which was nice considering we hardly talk at school lol.
My mom says i need to be more concious of myself around girls. Says i touch them too much. She is probably right. I am guessing 20 is a bit old to get that warning. One of the drawbacks of going to an all-boys school. Yep, I did. I attended Presentation College, Chaguanas for 7 years. It is a really prestigious school but sadly boys only so I guess my social graces are a bit late in developing. I think i already knew that, but I just didn't pay it any mind. So...now I have to concentrate on keeping my hands under control. I think I'll stick them in my pocket like I do when I go into a store lol. Gosh, I did know it you know. Just never really took it to heart. I feel so stupid and bad. I dont mean to be rude and stuff. I'll just have to try a lot harder. Behave, Shivan, Behave!!
Okay, that's all for now. We are leaving to go to the bride's parent's house in a few minutes. For those of you confused..well the link between our families is kinda drawn out but basically they're our friends. And the boy I hadn't seen in a long time is the bride's younger (youngest) brother.
Okay, forget it lol. Too much to explain. See you people later.

pleasant day and good friends...

Today was so good. i spent the afternoon by some friends and we were talking and watching tv and stuff and laughing and i had a really great time. i was being silly as usual because that cracks me up and it makes them laugh too and my brother was there just sittin and acting "cool". That looked really weird. He didnt seem to have as good a time as me because he had to concentrate on being cool. Well, i am sure he had a good time - he just didnt look that way as much lol. They told me i acted like the younger one - that is fine by me. Looking cool is great, but i dont get as many laughs so its ok. I'll be the goofy brother. :-)
And this evening we went to the friday night of a 3 day Hindu wedding and me and Vijai were there liming with a friend we hadn't seen in a while. It was really great hanging out with him and laughing and stuff. Saw a girl i used to like. She looks thinner, but i dunno if that is necessarily an improvement lol. I was worried today that i wouldnt know what to talk about both places we went to but things flowed really well so i am pleased.
Hope you guys had an equally nice day. Laterz.

Hooray George And Vijai...

HOORAY FOR GEORGE BOVELL III AND TRINIDAD & TOBAGO!!
George placed third in the 200 m Individual Medley (swimming) at the 2004 Athens Olympics, getting pipped out of silver by two hundredTHs of a second, and beating Perreira of Brazil who was highly favoured to gain silver. KUDOS! WELL DONE! KEEP IT UP!

And, today, I can officially announce that Vijai, my brother, apart from just getting into medical school, also gained 4 A's in Mathematics, Chemistry, Physics and General Paper in the June 2004 Cambridge GCE Advanced Level Examinations. So, Good Job to you too, Vij. And here's hoping you get your scholarship next. :-D

injections and other types of pain...

today i went to mt hope with my brother to register him in the medical program. i also went with him to get the vaccinations required by the university. I didnt complete my regimen of vaccines last year so i had to start over plus i got some extras to replace those that would have worn off from since i was a little boy. I ended up getting 3 shots - 2 on my left shoulder and 1 on my right. My left shoulder is still aching. so now i have to go back in 6 weeks for the 1st booster, and then in 6 months. i also have to do a tb screen. i not really worried about anything.
it's going to be a trip having my brother going to school again with me. i guess i'll just have to wait and see how it goes this rounds. he already made it perfectly clear i am an embarassment and he doesnt want to be seen with me. I hope he is joking, but it hurts anyway. :-(
tomorrow is the prayers by renair, i will have to go look for something presentable to wear. i wonder if i would get away with wearing jeans? i don't think my dress pants are in very good order. ooh and i have to get directions so i'm going to go do that. laterz.

exercise...

i started back exercising today. it was the first time i exercised since coming back from holiday, partly because i damaged my ankle right after returning. The ankle felt strong enough for me to try to go on the treadmill and that went fine so i'm glad. now don't get me wrong - i dont do any kind of fancy workout, just the basic treadmill and crunches/situps because i want to lose weight and get down my tummy which is pretty chubby. Besides, with school reopening in three weeks, any pound i lose will be a blessing. I would love to go back out to school and have someone tell me they see a difference in me. I also want my parents to get off my back. lol. my stomach seizes up so bad when i am doing the crunches. the pain makes me want to scream. i am glad noone was home today so i didnt have to stifle it, i could just let it out. my bottom two abdominals feel a little tight even now but i like that. its not painful and i take it as progress lol. i found some pilates exercises for abdominal region on msn so i think i will try to incorporate them into my workout one of these days. anyway i gotta go for now. Laterz

my poem...

My secrets I cannot share
My soul I cannot purge
I carry this stain within me
And I dont know who to blame
I don't know what you did to me
And I don't know what I did to myself
Tongue binded but my soul cries for release
Wash from me this bitter poison
Return to me my innocence
Take from me my knowledge
Source of my despair

congrats and chinese food...

hey, everyone. today was a happy day. my brother got accepted to the same medical school i attend, starting in september. he's really happy and stuff and we went out to dinner to celebrate. we had chinese and it tasted really nice. we had chicken in peppered garlic sauce and roasted chicken in plum sauce.
Congratulations Vij. :-D

head damage...

They are playing "truly, madly, deeply" on the radio from Savage Garden. I love that song and i love that group!! It's a real shame the group broke up. Hey, Darren and Daniel, any hope you two could maybe start up the duo again? Can't blame me for trying!!!
I got hit on my head with a corkball today. That's the bad news. I was the only person playing with the ball. That's the really bad news. still a bit sore on that side of my head, but all in all, that's the kind of thing i have gotten used to having happen to me. As a teacher once said, I'm accident prone. I'm still living so it's all good - no major damage.
I think i told you i love psychology. I really really do. i just realised that the "sign from above" that stopped me from posting the journal entry i told you about, could have been my inner self saying it didn't want to talk so openly about the topic that that journal entry pertained to. (you still with me? if not, reread last journal entry.)
Or, i could be overanalysing the whole situation. Hmm, on second thoughts, this might drive me nuts....or nuttier depending on what you think of me so far. :-P.
Laterz.

signs from above...

I just wrote an entry and tried to publish it, but no matter how many time i tried to publish it, it wouldn't go through. To be honest, it dealt with a topic i'm kind of touchy about so I am going to take that as a sign not to go ahead with that topic. Yeah, I do believe in signs like that.
Anyhow, today was okay. we had a carpenter over to install some new doors. we're still tryin to remodel the house and stuff. The new doors look really good with their gold fittings. Now, we (take that 'we' with a pinch of salt - i didn't really do anything) just have to finish the rest of the house but that could take a long time. We have to wait till the dry season begins next year before we can do some of the major work. And we have to find a good plumber.

Here's your thought for the day:

" Money doesn't buy happiness. Money buys choices and alternatives"

I came up with that one myself. And its true. Now, go think about it.

over the issue...

I have been thinking about the whole "scanning of my blog entries" issue. I know it probably seems a trivial matter -after all i put up my blog for people to read right? well, technically, i put up the blog for people to read and enjoy lol, not for computers to scan and send me ads :-P. Anyway, it was a little freaky but i'm over it so no scene. ;-)

they're scanning my blog!!! :-O ...

i dont know how many of you know about the controvery concerning the e-mail service that was being set up by Google - i think it was called Gmail or something. What was happening was the email program would scan your emails lookin for certain keywords and then you would recieve ads concerning products related to the keywords found in your mails. people said it was an invasion of privacy. i have noticed that google (Which owns blogspot - this site hosting this blog) has put the program to work here and is scanning my entries and puttin up related ads in the banners you see across the top of the page. Now, I accept that nothing is free and the ads are how Google makes the money that lets me post my blog for no cash payment and that's fine. But, at the same time I am a little weirded out by it. i dont think i am goin to change sites (cause blogspot is really cool and simple) but i just wanted to point that out. till later. S.

classic jalwa...

i just finished chattin with my cousin online. she doesnt think very much of blogging lol. i didnt bother to tell her i have my own blog. apparently, the need to share doesnt cut it with her - she referred to us as "losers" . Oh well, too bad for her. She's a cool girl but she lived in England for a few years and i don't think she's readjusted to slow T&T yet. not that that is hard to understand. the last time i got back from NY, i was so depressed. Trinidad didnt even seem to have color anymore - everything just looked grey - so i know where she is coming from.
Speaking of which, I would like to go live NY for a few years. I think NY is such a great city. It is a melting pot of so many people and especially immigrants, all living together and mingling and sharing cultures - not unlike trinidad. oh yeah, and because it is a big metropolitan city i wouldnt be out of place like if i went to .... Alabama. I dont think it would be very smart for me to go there lol. I think you can all figure out why without me spelling out the reason.
i'm listening to CLASSIC JALWA on Masala 101.1 fm with the Madhouse Crew. I love that show! all of the old time filmi hits. Big Up to You Guys if you ever read this blog. Keep up the good work but CUT DOWN ON THE PHONE SEGMENT, IT GOES ON TOO LONG AND WE MISS OUT ON MUSIC TIME!!!!!!
Ok. thaz it for now lol. maybe later....i real bored tonite. OR i might give my bro the computer. he prob wants to go on the internet. Laterz.

P.S. You understand why i couldnt give out the addy to the blog to my friends now? i wouldnt want to let my cousin know i am writin about her although this is my diary of sorts. S.

adjustments and templates...

i don't know if anyone has been following my little journal here, or even if anyone has found it yet, but if there is anyone, you might have noticed changes with the blog - i changed the template, and i adjusted some of the colours in some entries.
well, its a new blog and i am still trying to get it all down pat, so bear with me if you notice anything else not quiet the same as before.
i love both of the templates i have used so far - firstly, son of moto and now the harbour, so lots of good thoughts for the respective creators. i admit i am not very skilled at designing stuff like webpages or using HTML etc. and the templates are really useful for me. maybe, one day i will try to make my own personal template for the site to really make it all mine but till then, i really do like the harbour template.

petty people and (un)lucky days...

This morning i went onto the lcs2 message boards to see what ppl wrote about the decision last night, and i ended up getting pissed off. Ok, I know yu all are sad that your respective comic didnt win, but that doesnt mean that you have to cry down john and claim that the voting was all rigged and stuff. How about congratulating john and then just giving some encouraging words to the guy yu wanted to win? IF YOU HAVE NOTHING NICE TO SAY, DON'T SAY ANYTHING!!

In other news......

Today is Friday the 13th - Black Friday. I'm beginning to be wary of Black Friday, but with a twist. Now, I am cautious of any good things that happen on this day. Sound crazy? Well, it could be coincidence, but i think the good things that happen to me on this day later turn around to become bad things down the line. I know that probably doesn't make logical sense, and it could be coincidental anyway, but the last time was a reall stunner ( maybe one day i will fill you guys in, but not right now). So, here's to me just hoping for an average day. To all of you out there who believe in the bad luck associated with the day..Be careful my friends. In fact, that goes for everyone out there. :-)

congrats to...

hey everyone, JOHN HEFFRON WON LAST COMIC STANDING 2. CONGRATS MAN!!

how i run things...

well, i'm back again. this is my third post in 2 days lol (well technically 1 day, but the first entry was before i went to sleep last night so to me its 2 days). i dont think i will always post with this frequency, but this is a new experience and i am home on holidays with alot of free time so initially at least...enjoy (i hope).
i have decided how i am going to proceed with the blog. i want the blog to be my online diary, where i can write whatever, but as i said, it can be difficult writing stuff about ppl who yu know are goin to be reading it (IM has destroyed my English skills lol. Do you think its bad for a medical student, who aims to be a doctor, to be posting such sloppy, ungrammatical language? Well i guess it is pretty bad, but like i said...if i had to concentrate on English, it would kill my flow, so....we're just goin to have to compromise lol.)
[As you can see, i get sidetracked alot. I think like that too...I'm always going off on a tangent in my head, but it does make for very interesting thought streams. Today, i went from a thought on exercise to one on psychology to one on oujia boards. that's talent for you. hehehe]
So, back to the original topic (can you still remember what it was?). the topic was writing in my blog and not having to worry about ppl who might be in my thoughts reading it after. I decided the best way to do it was not to give anyone i know my blog address. If they find it fine, but i dont think that likely. it is more probable that you dear reader [and yes, i am doing this blog for people to read - cause i want yu to get an insight into my head and besides its like talking to you and not just to myself in my head - which i am told is not a good thing :-P], as i was saying, more likely you were surfing and found yourself here at random, which is fine, cause its easier to write being anonymous and unknown.
today we went out to look for some stuff to remodel our house. we have a nice house but it needs some work now, and i started looking at stuff and mentally picking out stuff to put in my house when i finish my degree and become Dr. Shivee and start making some decent cash lol. But i do know that i am not like my parents, they grew up handy and can do painting and all kinds of stuff like that around the house. I can't. That is why I need to be a doctor, cause i'm always goin to need a plumber or an electrician or something and that takes $$$. its probably not proper for a doctor to mention money, but hey, I have to live too and that takes money....and I want to live nice.
well, i have lots in my head to write but a little at a time. I want to make my blog a long term project so...I'm goin to keep back some stuff for a later time. I might give yu all another post tonite depending on what happens with LCS2 and if i have any profound thoughts lol.
Be good, dear readers, and please come back soon.

waiting for the results...

tonite they are goin to announce the winner of last comic standing 2. I am supporting JOHN HEFFRON cause he was really funny and consistent. i have been reading the message boards on nbc for a few weeks now, and that was a trip. i just want to say, that i supported dat phan on the first season of lcs. he was funny and it was really lame how everyone kept picking on him, first on the show and now on the message board. As for Ralphie May, not only was he a mean sonofabitch (yeah, i curse.) his final set wasnt funny. and i didnt agree with his topic anyway. so enough of that, now i'm just waiting till 10 pm when i will know who won.
and since we are on the topic, i think i will link this and tell yu dear reader what kind of tv/books/music i like, cause if yu're takin the time to read, i'm goin to try to earn the effort.
i like comedy and stuff that makes me laugh. i love standup on Comedy Central and HBO and Showtime. I like sitcoms too, like Still Standing, 3rd Rock from the Sun (which is only in reruns now), Just Shoot Me. I don't like Bernie Mac. i also like spy, intruige movies. To me, James Bond is not so much a spy movie as an action movie. The need-to-laugh extends to my books and also the spy thing. If you have never read it, the Third Class Genie is a really funny book. In terms of the spy books, John Le Carre is a great author - I like the books about the Cold War era. I've been reading Dan Brown lately - the Da Vinci code was really cool.
Musicwise, i like to listen to alot of different kinds of music but i am not really into heavy metal. Some of the bands i like are: Savage Garden (altho they are broken up now)and matchbox twenty. I mainly listen to indian music tho - filmies and remixes. i also listen to chutney, but i am really selective about what kind of chutney i listen too. Firewood is the last really good chutney i think i heard.
ok that's it for now, i'll try to hit up the site again soon. I plan to put up some pics too, probably after i get the pictures from our little holiday in tobago developed. basically my tobago holiday was 50/50. the beach was great but i got ill, lost my wallet and argued with my mom (which is not as rare as yu might think. we really been blowing up alot lately. i guess is cause i home from school and we thrown together a lot of the time. normally things settle when school is on and i am not home as much). to top it off, i redamaged my ankle monday tryin to replace the id lost wiht my wallet so now i am really anxoius about the ankle. i am so scared i am goin to wrench it again. it is so painful when it happens. i nearly blacked out last time. thank goodness for the lady in the drugstore who let me rest there. God Bless You, Dear. well that's all folks. Laterz.

first contact...

welcome to my blog. firstly, excuse my lack of punctuation and my bad grammar etc. - if i had to worry bout all that it would kill my flow. to introduce myself, i am shivee. 20 yrs old. single. male. straight. indian (trinbagonian of east indian descent to be alot more accurate). Hindu. dont smoke or drink or do drugs, but i do have a vice - pretty girls & everything related and derived from them. i'm in university doin my medical degree, which is goin well so far but i only finished 1 year so far.
this is my first posting so i dont want to go too far and scare you away with all my eccentricities and "issues", but I am sure that they will all come out as time passes by. also, depending on how many ppl i know are going to be reading this, i might have to hold some stuff back. its always easier to write stuff to ppl who i will never meet.
i like blogs because it gives me an insight to other ppl's worlds and i hope my blog will be the same, hence i hope that ppl are reading this and those of you who are, thank yu for takin the time. and please feel free to reply or make comments. i have been meanin to keep a diary and hopefully this blog will be it. it's less work to keep up than a whole website so that is great - i believe in keepin it simple and to a minimum of effort.
well i think that is enough for this posting. as time goes by, and i write more you will get to know me better, and i will try to keep linking topics so you get a picture of my past and my present and my future all at once.

b4 i leave, i want to remember some people who have touched my life and are no longer in this world. So, to my grandfather John, my Pundit Krishna, Kanchan & Sundar whose music helps to define me and were a great part of my childhood. And especially to my grandmother, who i have never met in life, but who is the reason i believe in ghosts. May You All find Happiness in the Next Life.